Let's welcome author S. B. Alexander to my humble literary abode. Thank you so much for agreeing to this beautiful guest post on your tour for DARE TO KISS. It is a truly unique feeling to hear about a person's life in such deep, touching way.
How love changed my life.
S.B. Alexander
Love is a word
that makes you smile, makes you cry, makes you feel, makes you sad, makes you
think about a person, a place, and even a thing.
As a kid, I lived
in world where love didn’t exist, a world where the norm was hopping from
foster to foster home because my dad couldn’t take care of me after my mom died.
So I never knew the meaning of what it meant to love a person. Honestly, I
think hate was more powerful at that time in my life. No one told me they loved
me, and I wasn’t in a foster home long enough to get attached to anyone. So as a
kid I closed myself off and hid in a corner.
As I grew into an
adult and continued my journey in life, I worried that the coldness inside me would
never go away. How could I get rid of the bitterness and open up my mind enough
to heal or let anyone in? Or even allow myself to understand what it meant to
love another person. I saw my friends around me, and their loving relationships
with their parents, siblings, husbands, friends and boyfriends. It saddened me
to witness others happiness. Maybe my destiny wasn’t to experience love. Still,
did I need love to be happy?
Then I had my
first crush as a teenager. Butterflies found a home in my stomach when I laid
eyes on a boy who lived in my neighborhood. What did it mean? Did butterflies
equal love? Maybe I thought. I was certainly happy and giddy over the feelings
I had for him. But after he broke my heart, I realized that even though things
didn’t work out between us, I found hope that I was capable of feeling more
than just hatred. But how would I feel or react if someone said they loved me?
I was careful with
my heart as I continued to date. If loving someone ended with a broken heart, I
didn’t want any part of it. Still, I had to put myself out there. I had to find
out what it meant to really love and be loved.
Someone had told me once that love is a remedy for
those that are broken inside.
After everything I
experienced as a child I was skeptical. But when a lady whom I met while I was
in the military took me in as though I was her daughter, I began to understand
the meaning behind what that person had told me. She poured her heart and soul
into showing me what life could be like when someone loves you unconditionally.
She gave me her love. It was weird at first to hear a woman I’d known for only
a few months tell me she loved me like I was her daughter.
From her
friendship, her love, her time, her trust, she helped me unravel the confusion
of my childhood. I realized I didn’t love me, or the person inside me. More
importantly, she taught me how to love myself before I love someone else. Our time together was inspirational,
cathartic and overwhelming, and to this day she’s still a guiding light in my
life.
I thank God everyday
for the path I took. Love does hurt. Love does challenge you. But most of all
Love does heal. Without love in my life, I may not be where I am today.
DARE TO KISS
S. B. ALEXANDER
Page Count: 340
New Adult
Fiction, Romance
September 30,
2014
Besides her
family, Lacey Robinson’s only other love is baseball. She’s on top of the world
when Arizona State University approaches her to discuss a scholarship. To be
the first girl ever to grace a college boys’ team is beyond what she has ever
dreamed.
Her fastball is
impeccable, her curveball equally as good, and her slider annihilates anyone
who dares to step in the batter’s box. But fate has its own way of throwing
curveballs. When she looses her mother and sister to a home invasion, baseball
and her dreams die with them. Tragedy has a way of seeping deep into her
psyche, causing nightmares, panic attacks and blackouts.
Diagnosed with
Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, her psychiatrist recommends a change of scenery
and picking up the things that she loved to do, and for Lacey that is baseball.
After a move
clear across the country, only two things matter to Lacey—overcome her PTSD and
make Kensington High’s baseball team. But trying out for the team comes with
obstacles—the captain, Aaron Seever, doesn’t want a girl on the team.
Her life is
further complicated when she meets Kade Maxwell, a tall, sexy and drool-worthy
bad boy who has a magical touch that awakens her feminine side and a kiss that
slowly erases her nightmares.
But getting
involved with him may be dangerous when Kade’s archenemy returns to town to
settle a vendetta.
To complicate
matters, her PTSD has taken a turn for the worse. She has to find a way to heal
otherwise she may not have a chance at anything in life, especially love.
Thank you so much for hosting me on your blog yesterday. S.B. Alexander.
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